A Change of Direction: An Alternative Ending to Mike
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Change of Pace
1997/02/16
Reprise from A Change of Pace
6. Chapter
“That was dirty pool, mother” Jack complained.
She looked up from some picture album she was paging through,
and set her coffee down. She looked her new daughter directly
in the eye. “Well, you’ve had all morning to explore your own
feminine body rather than some movie star’s. Have you learned
anything?”
Jack just shook her head. How could bizarre waterbondage lesbos she expect her to talk
about something like that. Gosh mom, I never thought I’d have
the chance to inspect a real hymen – thanks for letting me do
it first hand?
“About what I said.” Jack broached the subject nervously.
“About needing more time?” she smiled wickedly.
“You can’t really count that as consent.” Jack objected.
“The statement ‘I need more time’, especially in hot and heavy
breathing, would be interpreted by most people as a request.”
She countered while flipping to another page of the photo
album.
“You said I could change back when I wanted to.” Jack tried
switching to a different tack.
“Only after you are acclimated.” she reminded him. “You have
_not_ acclimated.”
“That’s for sure.” Jack commented staring at her nails.
“Whatever possessed me to paint my nails?”
“That would have been the Training Wheels.” Laurie explained
“I gave you some of Scully’s thought patterns and habits. I
actually alternated between physical changes and slipping in
little mental assists. ”
“Like what else?” Jack queried.
“As in last night you knew when your hair was a mess, young
lady.” Laurie pointed at Jack’s bizarre waterbondage lesbos new black hair. “That needs
brushing before you even think of showing your face anywhere.”
Jack shuddered at the thought of showing this new face
anywhere. Still it was probably something that was better left
unsaid. “I take it that the ‘Training Wheels’ are gone?”
“Those were Scully things – you have to learn how to be your
own woman, Jacqueline. That’s how we all manage it.” Laurie
explained, pausing to look at the photo album again. “Still I
_might_ decide that you were only giving provisional consent.
Should you ever want to be male again I’m not sure I want to
set the precedent that consent can be obtained after you get
the girl on the edge of orgasm.”
“You _might_ consider it provisional?” Jack jumped at the
chance. Still she had to be careful. She knew that when her
mother said she _might_ do something it meant that she had
further points for Jack to listen to first.
“Even with an eight hour extension you continued to explore
only the physical aspects directly related to sex.” Jacqueline
could recognize that her bizarre waterbondage lesbos mother was now in lecture mode. “Do
you really believe that life for a woman is about getting laid
and having orgasms? I expected you to learn far more.”
“Mother, you were throwing the changes at me every fifteen
minutes. I couldn’t even finish looking at one thing before
two others were already changed!” Jack protested.
“I did notice a lot of nail polish remover was gone.” Laurie
conceded. “Maybe I should have provided the training wheels on
How to paint your nails at the same time as the idea that they
needed to be painted.”
“Well I can’t possibly learn anything about what really being
a woman at a pace like that. If you want me to find out any of
these ’sacred’ truths I’ll need more time.”
Oh shit, Jack things to herself. Her mother’s grin left no
doubts. She savored her victory while gazing longingly at the
photo album again.
“So how long before I’m acclimated enough to be turned back.”
Jacqueline asked, resigning herself to the fact that it was
now her name for at least awhile.
“Oh, I don’t know. bizarre waterbondage lesbos At least a year.” her mother replied
sipping on her coffee.
“A Year! But what about school?”
“Don’t worry, records are easy to take care of.” she reassured
new daughter.
Jacqueline sighed realizing she had no choice. “Well, I
suppose I could stand a year.”
Laurie finished her coffee without comment. Jacqueline
suddenly realized she didn’t recognize the photo album her
mother had been looking through all morning.
“Do you want to take a look?” Laurie offered, spinning it
“I’ve kept it safe all these years.”
Jacqueline took the album and started looking. They were old
family photos. He could recognize his grandmother from when
she was about Mom’s age. But who was the teenage boy? He
didn’t remember any uncles.
Oh shit, suddenly he knew who the pictures were of.
“Grandmother gave you an initiation too?” she asked.
Laurie nodded. “But if anyone asks, that’s your Uncle Larry.
They don’t have to know that he doesn’t exist anymore.”
“How long were you stuck as Larry?” Jacqueline asked.
“Those were taken when I was almost eighteen, about three
years before you were born.” Laurie explained. “The
‘initiation’ bizarre waterbondage lesbos was a graduation present from my mother. It took
me three years for me to learn enough Magic to do a
Transformation Spell. Oh, did I forget to mention that you
will have to apply the reverse Transformation Spell yourself?”
Jacqueline gulped. If it had taken her mom three years she
knew it would take her at least four. She was going to be
female through college. She did not like this one bit at all.
“Wait a second,” Jacqueline started running over the numbers
aloud “If it took you three years to learn how to Transform
yourself back, how could you have had me when you were twenty
one?”
“Jacqueline, I certainly hope you know how babies are made,
especially since it effects you far more directly now.”
“No,” she replied “How could you be turned into a guy when you
were eighteen, take three years to learn how to turn yourself
back, then meet dad, get married, get pregnant and give birth
to me nine months later?”
“The truth is out there. “Laurie answered “There should be
enough Scully left in you bizarre waterbondage lesbos to come up with a _rational_
explanation.”
Oh god, Jacqueline just sat there numbly. “It took you three
years to learn _how_ to use the Transformation Spell, but you
never did _use_ it, did you?”
“Not until last night, darling daughter of mine.” Laurie
explained “I’m sure you can figure it out just as quickly. You
know what they say – Like Mother, Like Daughter. And we both
had a lot of catching up to do.”
End Reprise
A Change of Direction Part 1
by Tigger
Chapter 7
“I’m not going to be pulled in just because you were!”
Jacqueline stared icily. “I want to learn what I have to know
as quickly as possible. I don’t want to be female a month
longer that I have to!”
“That’s your choice.”Laurie conceded “But you won’t like some
of the lessons required, especially if you really want to take
them immediately.”
“Just as long as it can really be over and done with in a
year.” Jacqueline seethed. “You had better not have been lying
about that.”
“Now Jacqueline, I never lied to Jack, and I won’t lie to you.
It bizarre waterbondage lesbos can most assuredly be done in a single year.” Laurie
assured her daughter.
Of course, Laurie added to herself. You’ll have to acclimate
very quickly, since the most intricate portion of the
Transformation Spell can only be learned while in the delivery
room, and the final nuances while nursing your newborn.
“I don’t believe you.” was Jack’s cold reply. Laurie’s eyes
slued to her Transformed son. “That book proves you lied to
me. By omission, certainly and by making promises you did not
intend to keep. You never intended to return me to normal.”
Anger sparked in Laurie’s eyes. “I beg to differ, young lady.
If you had asked to end the Transformation it would have
ended. Now it is beyond my power to reverse it.”
The bleak lack of any emotion in her child’s response chilled
Laurie’s soul. “Perhaps, but you have a world of history on
your side,” Jack lifted the album to her, “to prove that,
without beforehand knowledge, the Transformed person is not
going to make that decision because the full bizarre waterbondage lesbos ramifications
have been left. . .” the finely made fingers whirled in the
air as if to pull the correct words out of the ether,
“intentionally unclear?”
Laurie pursed her lips and refused to answer. “How long,
Mother? How long has this. . . this abomination been
inflicted on the men of our family? And how could you do it
to me? And why should I believe you when you say that it is
beyond your power?”
“ABOMINATION?” Laurie’s temper was back in full measure. “How
dare you call it that? It is a gift! A wonderful gift and
you will damn well learn and accept that basic truth if you
want any hope of returning to your pitiful male existence. I
*love* you and I will not have *you* say or think otherwise.
I loved Jack enough to give him these gifts of magic and
womanhood because I have had both and wanted to share them
with the son I love.”
“Forgive me, Mother, if I don’t share your enthusiasm for
these . . bizarre waterbondage lesbos . gifts.” The disgusted look on Jack’s face left no
doubt of what he had wanted to say about those gifts. “And
you did not answer my question, Mother, so I will answer it.
Too long. This unwilling Transformation stunt has been going
on for so long that you fail to see the wrong you have done to
me, your son. Well, it ends here and now. I will be the last
of our family.”
“What??” Laurie’s head snapped up. “What did you say?”
“I won’t perpetuate this horror myself nor will I permit it to
be perpetuated on any child of mine. I will not even bring a
child into a world where you consider it *your* unequivocal
right to take away that child’s life and dreams because *you*
think you know better.”
Laurie went very still, the full import of what her child had
just said shocked her into speechlessness. This was not going
at all well and certainly not as it had gone with her own
mother nor as Mum had told bizarre waterbondage lesbos her it had gone with all the
previous generations of her family. Had she done something
wrong in casting her spell? Had she missed some key element
of the enchantment that would have made Jacqueline more able
to accept and enjoy her new situation? Choosing her words
very carefully, she tried a more conciliatory tact. “You
would deny me a grandchild to love?”
It did not work. “It ends with me, Mother.”
“But you have already tasted the power of your femininity, and
of your new sexuality. Before you can learn enough magic to
change yourself back you may well end up pregnant.”
“Even assuming I choose to be actively female, which is a
stretch, there are ways of preventing conception. This is the
Twentieth Century.”
“Women on birth control have babies every day, Jacqueline.
There is no foolproof way of preventing conception short of
abstinence.” And you won’t be able to do that, my daughter,
Laurie thought. Another little aspect of this Transformation
is that your female needs are extremely well developed and
demanding. Soon, bizarre waterbondage lesbos your fingers will not be nearly enough for
you.
“Again, assuming that something goes very wrong, there are
ways of ending an unwanted pregnancy. And it *will* be
unwanted, Mother. No child of my blood will come into this
world because I cannot trust you.”
All remaining color drained from Laurie’s face. “You can’t
terminate, Jack.” she whispered, not realizing that she had
fallen back to using his male name. Seeing the look on her
child’s face, she hurried on. “It is not only a moral thing,
daughter, it is a rule of magic, as well. Someone who
deliberately snuffs out the spark of life from another human
can never again wield the power.”
“Then my dreams will die with the fetus, Mother, for I cannot,
will not permit a child of mine to face what I am facing right
now. I won’t Transform him or her, but as long as you live,
you are a threat because you don’t believe there is anything
wrong in stealing a dream.”
“You keep saying that. What dream? bizarre waterbondage lesbos You can become a male
again, if you choose.” and after you give me my grandchild she
added in a whispered thought to herself, “What dreams have I
taken from you?”
“College. It took you three years, Mother, so it will
probably cost me at least that much. I will not play college
sports. I won’t go to a prom with my best girl on my arm. I
won’t learn all the things a man needs to know to live in a
man’s world as a man. You might as well have killed me,
Mother, and have had done with it.”
Tears came to Laurie’s eyes. “You cannot mean that. You are
just upset right now, overwrought. Honestly, Jack, it is not
that bad. In fact, *being* a fellow’s best girl at the prom
really is rather wonderful, if you would just give it a
chance. Nothing else needs to change. I am sorry I hurt you
for I see now that I have, but I did not mean for bizarre waterbondage lesbos it to be
like this.”
Jack watched his Mother’s tears with a detachment born of a
soul deep fury. “I will give you one chance, Mother. Reverse
the spell, right now. Return me to normal, give me back the
life *I* want for me instead of the one *you* want for me and
I will not do anything to prevent having children. Otherwise,
live with the fact that you have ended our line with your
gleeful lack of concern for my wants and dreams.”
If anything, the tears flowed harder. Last night, Laurie
could have reversed the Transformation. She could have given
her son back the life he evidently wanted enough to threaten
her this way. Now, that was beyond even her power because the
final spell she had cast upon his “request” for “more time”
had been very carefully crafted so that only Jacqueline could
reverse it. Which she could not do until she had learned the
lessons and the magic necessary to effect and control the
Transformation Spell on her own. Lessons bizarre waterbondage lesbos that included giving
birth and nurture to a child she now insisted she would never
permit to be born. Goddess, what *had* she done?
“I have to leave.” Laurie sobbed and ran from the room leaving
a furious former son, now daughter, behind.
Twenty minutes later, a starkly composed Laurie returned to
find Jack exactly as she had left her. She was simply sitting
there, staring at the picture album. Goddess, but her son
made a beautiful woman. Dark hair, dark flashing eyes and an
olive complexion gave hints to the family’s Gypsy ancestry.
In the right period costume, the girl would have looked right
at home in their Great Great Great Grandmother’s caravan
wagon, dancing to the rhythm of a tambourine for the coins men
would toss her way and telling fortunes by fire light.
And the son she had given birth to hated the very thought of
that. Probably hated her, too, for her part in it. Still,
there was nothing more she could do about it. Laurie had
spent the last bizarre waterbondage lesbos fifteen minutes pouring over her ancestral
texts, looking for a charm or potion or spell that would undo
what she had done, but to no avail. She had done her work far
too well in that respect and evidently not well enough in the
sense of easing her child’s acceptance of this change as the
wonderful gift Laurie had seen it as. Now, she had no choice.
She had to play this debacle out the only way she had left to
her and hope, that in the end, she did not lose her child in
the process.
With great care, she walked back to her seat across from her
daughter and sat down. “I cannot undo the Transformation,
Jack. I have gone through all my records, and no one except
the Transformed One has ever been able to reverse the change
successfully.”
“So, others have found the change not to their liking?” The
comment was snide and was meant to wound. Laurie did her best
to ignore it.
Instead, she steeled herself not to rise to the bizarre waterbondage lesbos spite in
Jack’s voice. There was nothing to be gained at this point by
fighting. “According to my family records, there have been
fifty male to female Transformations attempted in our family
over the past two hundred years. Of that number, five men
refused the final Transformation and were restored to their
masculine state at the end of the first hour. Of the
remaining cases, five members of our family who completed
Transformation attempted to reverse the spell. The three who
completed the learning succeeded in undoing Transformation and
lived out their lives as men. However, the other two who
tried to reverse the spell were not successful. One attempted
the change before completing all the steps of the learning,
and the other forced his mother to attempt a counter-spell.
Both died.”
Jack sat back, legs akimbo, in a posture of utter male
dejection. It made Jacqueline look completely ridiculous and
rather lewd, but Laurie bit her lip and said nothing. Trying
to enforce the little niceties of ladylike deportment would
not help Laurie’s weak bizarre waterbondage lesbos case with her daughter. Jacqueline
looked up, her black eyes bleak and filling with tears. “Then
it is over. I know you won’t attempt it because you won’t
kill me, but in truth, I am not sure I wouldn’t rather be dead
right now.”
“That is enough!” Laurie’s ringing rebuke stunned Jack. “I
will apologize one more time for my stupidity in thinking you
might be intelligent enough, open enough, to appreciate what I
did for you. However, you are alive. You are a beautiful,
intelligent human being who happens to be female and that
*can* be temporary. You have the potential to undo what you
find so absolutely distasteful if you will only quit whining
and get on with what must be done. You don’t know anything
about the power you could wield, but just so you might begin
to understand, consider this. You say I have stolen your
dreams, that I am denying you the opportunity to go to college
as a male. If you complete the training and if bizarre waterbondage lesbos you master the
skills I will teach you, there is no reason that you cannot
Transform yourself into your male self, at any age you desire.
You want to be an eighteen year old again, then make it so
when you perform the Transformation Spell on yourself. It
will be within your capabilities.”
“And all I have to do is learn your little magicks and do your
little tests, is that it? Which you have already said I will
find distasteful. Let’s not forget that.”
“No, in your current mind set, I imagine they will be bloody
awful for you, but that cannot be helped. It is the only way
that I can find in my records to undo what I have done without
causing your death. For my part, I give you my most solemn
oath that I will teach you everything you need to know as
quickly as you can absorb and master the knowledge. In
return, I want your promise that you will do nothing to try
and accelerate your return to bizarre waterbondage lesbos manhood. I won’t teach you
without that promise because, while I don’t want to live with
your unhappiness on my conscience, I refuse to be the cause of
your death.”
Jack considered that. Laurie wanted to squirm under the power
of her unblinking stare. Goddess, but would Jacqueline be
powerful once she learned to focus her craft. Finally, Jack
drew herself up and spoke. “Very well, Mother. I agree and
you have my promise on that score. Just one other thing,
though. If I ever am given cause to believe that you are not
being completely truthful with me again, or that you are
playing games with me, I will leave and never come back. I
will live the rest of my days as you have made me, but with
one small change. I will have myself surgically sterilized so
that this ends with me.”
She is striking out, trying to hurt me, as she has been hurt,
Laurie thought. She shook her head. This was going to be so
very hard. bizarre waterbondage lesbos Why had it not been hard for her and her mother?
What had she done
